that was today.
the official first day of summer for my kids.
it was rough.
I don't know how much longer I can cater to kole and take care of the others like I need to.
I am wearing thin and I am tired. Not just physically, I have come to terms that I will be tired for the next 18 years. I am tired mentally. Just. plain. worn. out.
His whining, crying, screaming, sobbing, yelling, tantrums are wearing me out. I don't know how much longer I can listen to him yell at me and call me a bitch and wish I would die. I don't know how much longer I can allow the little ones to hear it.
We haven't started his new diet yet. We are giving his new meds a couple more days. We haven't seen any changes. I will call the Dr. on Thursday. That would allow us two full weeks. He may ask us to wait a bit longer or he may make some changes. I am tired of wasting time. I am out of time.
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brody munkers
my sweet sweet baby boy. the youngest. he is amazing. his eyes light up when he sees or hears his mama. he is such a joy. i am so very blessed to have such a amazing baby. he is my thumb sucker, grinning, belly laugher.
koley
my oldest, my first. he's my challenge. my witty, funny, active challenge. he struggles, he hurts and i can't make it better. i don't know how to make it better. he loves to color, write and journal. he wants to please and be accepted. i want him to be healthy and happy!
abbies!
my 3rd. a middle child of sorts. she is my entertainer, my broadway performer. my lover. she has a smile that is contagious. she is such a joy that pushes her limits! we kid about her horns...they are hidden by all that hair! she loves her bubbies and sissy more than anything. daddy far outranks her mama.
lanee girl
sweet, sweet lane. my second baby, a middle child of sorts. she is drama, she is thoughful and kind. she asks entirely too many questions that she knows the answers to. she smiles all the time. she is so creative, she is an artist. i call her my "little mommie" as she is so helpful! she has been through so much in her young life. i treasure her and couldn't live without her for a minute.
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Hugs. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through.I'm here if you ever need to talk.
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