Thursday, July 17, 2008

can I get off this train?




alzheimer's
noun
a progressive form of presenile dementia that is similar to senile dementia except that it usually starts in the 40s or 50s; first symptoms are impaired memory which is followed by impaired thought and speech and finally complete helplessness [syn: Alzheimer's disease]

I haven't mentioned this yet. We have a definate diagnosis for my mom. We are losing her. She is slipping away from me and my babies right in front of my eyes. She has been deteriating for a couple of years. We knew something wasn't right, she has seen specialist after specialist and had a mountain of tests. She is fading.

I adore my mom. She is one of the kindest, most thoughtful people on earth. It just isn't fair.

12 comments:

Liz said...

(((hugs))) I totally know what you're going through. We're losing my grandma the same way. It's hard to see someone you love go through it. It hurts everyone and is so hard to realize the person they once were isn't there anymore. I'm sad my daughter won't know her great-grandma like I do. Lots and lots of hugs.

Kim and Dave said...

Oh Erin! I'm in tears right now for you. It's not right, it's not fair and you have every reason to be devastated, heart-broken, angry, and any other emotion that bubbles up. I can only offer my thoughts and prayers and hopes for some kind of coping mechanism to get you through. I'm so very sorry.

SavvySarahDesigns said...

erin~

i have gone through this. not with my mom, but with my grandfather. it was very hard. there are lots of treatments and medications that are very helpful.

if you need me - you know right where we are.

xoxoxoxo

Em said...

Oh, Erin, I'm so sorry. Alzheimer's is such an awful thing to watch a loved one go through. I am sending hugs & prayers.

Jill said...

dammit. dammit, dammit, dammit.

I just can't believe this post erin. I just can't believe it. Alzheimer's and your mom. Oh gosh, I send so many hugs to you! We lost my grandmother to Alzheimer's and her body giving up a couple of years ago and it will forever be remembered. It was one of the hardest things to watch.

I send you so much love and so many hugs!

I'm so sorry erin!

Missey~ said...

Erin,
This just made me sick to my stomach. Sending more hugs & prayers your way.
You are one tough lady!! Hang in there. You know we are always here for you.

Missey

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry.
As my Mom always said, after the rain, always a rainbow..hang in there!

Emily said...

I am so so sorry, Erin. I can't even begin to imagine how hard this must be on you and your family :(

*hugs*

Unknown said...

I am so sorry you are going through all of this. (((hugs)))

ZONE F DG TEAM said...

Are there signs, looking back that you would suggest others to watch for???

Anonymous said...

(((hugs))) I'm so sorry that you have to go through the ugliness of Alzheimers. I hope that your able to send whatever time left you have with your mom while she is still able to know who you and your babies are. I'll be thinking of you

Anonymous said...

Oh Erin, I had no idea. Hugs and love to you. I know it's got to be so hard.