koley's visit

The anticipation was unreal. I absolutely couldn't stop looking at the clock. At 10:15 I went upstairs to get my laptop and as I was headed down the steps, I saw two little nikes running up the front porch steps. I flipped! I raced down and met him outside. I wrapped my arms around him and squeezed him, he didn't fuss or try to get away, in fact he squeezed back. The driver stood smiling as I sobbed and continued to hold him hostage with my hugs.

We came in the house and he saw the girls and brody. Abbie was thrilled and threw her arms around him! He sat on the couch visiting as I worked on some paperwork that the drivers brought with them. His back was toward me but as he was talking I thought that his voice was changing. There is a definite "rasp" to it that wasn't there before. I swear he is taller. I know it sounds nuts but go two weeks not seeing your child and you will see the differences.

We all had breakfast together and then of course took some photographs. He didn't fuss with me a bit. Actually he seemed to enjoy it.

We took the babies and Lane to the sitter and then headed to Children's for his appointment. We sat in the exam room for 50 minutes which gave us a chance to visit. The Dr. did a full examination and workup and found that he has some definite and solid tremors but he didn't think there was anything further. He didn't encourage us to have a MRI done as it can be a very invasive procedure similar to surgery as he would have to be put to sleep. We are going to discuss the medicines with his psychologist and see what could causing him to tremor.

After we left Children's we went to German Village to a great little deli called Little Brown Bag. It is a little hole in the wall kinda place with great food. We had sammies and then went next door to Cupcake Gingham. I am ALL ABOUT a great cupcake. The three of us got different flavors and even took some home for the girls. I had promised to take him to the bookstore so we went to the Book Loft. He picked out two books and found two Ohio State postcards that he was going to hang on his bulletin board at Applewood.

Before I knew it, it was time to return him so he could be driven back to Applewood. It hit me at the deli that he had to go back. I sat with tears running down my face and Koley just hugged me. They both knew why I was sad but said nothing.

When they left I sat in the parking lot and watched them pull away. It breaks my heart all over again each time he goes away. It is that much more time that I am missing.

It was a wonderful day and I SO enjoyed having him home even for just a moment.