Today was bittersweet. Today was the 4th trip to the courthouse in so many months. We had 3 continuances with some "wrenches" thrown in the mix. Trip two was continued because his biological father decided after 8.5 years of no contact that he wanted to be "apart of his life." It's kind of a long story but to make it super short, I left when Koley was one. I said stay out of my life and I will stay out of yours. Part of the court process is that Kole's father is notified. The third trip was continued due to Kole's GAL (lawyer of sorts)not showing, which was actually a blessing in disguise. Kole's father did show to court last week, much to every one's surprise. When it was continued to this week I thought for sure he would be there. Guess what! He didn't show. Don't know why I thought he would show. Last week they made the 3 hour round trip and missed a day of work, surely they wouldn't do that a week later. I was relieved that he wasn't there but again so very let down by him. I don't know why after all these years he would do the right thing.
Custody has now been set and even though we requested this process and custody change it sucks. I knew it was coming but didn't realize how badly it would hurt.
Just because I miss my boy, I thought I'd share some of my favorite photographs!
I'm so sorry Erin. Isn't it just so sad to watch a biological father act that way toward his child? In the end, he's only letting Kole down and that's heart breaking...
my sweet sweet baby boy. the youngest. he is amazing. his eyes light up when he sees or hears his mama. he is such a joy. i am so very blessed to have such a amazing baby. he is my thumb sucker, grinning, belly laugher.
koley
my oldest, my first. he's my challenge. my witty, funny, active challenge. he struggles, he hurts and i can't make it better. i don't know how to make it better. he loves to color, write and journal. he wants to please and be accepted. i want him to be healthy and happy!
abbies!
my 3rd. a middle child of sorts. she is my entertainer, my broadway performer. my lover. she has a smile that is contagious. she is such a joy that pushes her limits! we kid about her horns...they are hidden by all that hair! she loves her bubbies and sissy more than anything. daddy far outranks her mama.
lanee girl
sweet, sweet lane. my second baby, a middle child of sorts. she is drama, she is thoughful and kind. she asks entirely too many questions that she knows the answers to. she smiles all the time. she is so creative, she is an artist. i call her my "little mommie" as she is so helpful! she has been through so much in her young life. i treasure her and couldn't live without her for a minute.
other half to sean 1.22.05 mama to: kole 4.7.99. lanee 2.10.01. abbie 1.27.06. brody 2.4.08 children's photographer flipflop, tanktop wearer lover of... baby toes hot chocolate the color red sarcasm fabric ohio state football reality tv gardening interior design open windows clean kitchen giving gifts fresh cut flowers black & white photographs gap & old navy pottery barn target sewing antiquing super hot showers dvr pedicures comfy pants white cake/white icing brooks & dunn monkeys rainy days smoothies email rascal flatts the soup on E! lowercase letters my surburban my kids artwork mcdonalds fries newborn babies capturing happiness silver jewelry picture frames ribbon rainy days
there is no greater strength on earth than the heart's will to presevere.
4 comments:
I'm sure it was difficult and heart-wrenching. I'm thinking of you.
a thousand hugs sent your way. he is so sweet!! i love the baseball one..trying to be a big guy, but not quite making it :)
I'm so sorry Erin. Isn't it just so sad to watch a biological father act that way toward his child? In the end, he's only letting Kole down and that's heart breaking...
Many, many hugs sent to you...
Hugs and love. He's getting so so big.
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