Tuesday, April 07, 2009

my boy

my boy turned 10 today

without his mama.

my heart was broken all day.

i don't ever want to be away from my child on another birthday.

i called today but didn't talk to him.

the phone rang tonight and my heart flipped.

he called and we both cried.

emotion for him is rough and rare.

he said he is homesick.

i had never heard him say that.

he told me he loved me first.

i adore him.
i am tired of him suffering.
i am tired of it all.

happy 10th birthday my boy!




10 comments:

Stephanie said...

lots & lots of hugs for you, sweetie. i hope you have a fantastic trip tomorrow. heart you.

ladybugDZ said...

Thinking about you and I hope you feel my strength!

Liz said...

i'm glad you got to talk to him, but wish he could've been with you and you with him. awesome awesome pic of the two of you :)

SavvySarahDesigns said...

oh erin. i hope we were able to take your mind off it for at least a little bit. but i know you can never stop thinking about him...

i love you and i am sorry you are sad. i am thinking of you guys always and hoping and praying for progress.

we are so excited to see koley this weekend!

xoxo

Andrea said...

I'm so sorry you had to miss this day without him. But I hope you have a wonderful visit with him today! Many, many hugs to you both!! I'm thinking about you.

Jill said...

My heart goes out to you. You are a good mom and he's already showing such improvement thanks to your help. Saying things that you always wanted him to say and he wouldn't... that in itself is worth celebrating!

Kole, here's wishing you a Happy Birthday buddy. We are all thinking and praying for you!

crrv said...

I am so sorry this is happening to you guys. I think about you often. Hugs.

jannypie said...

i'm so sorry :'(

D said...

Hopes, prayers and wishes that this is the last birthday you will be separated from Koley.

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Kole!

I'm sorry Erin. I wish it were easier.